Ramiro Franco

Anxiety Paralysis

Written on Sunday January 13, 2019 at 9:51 p.m.

I have a bad habit of allowing my anxiety to get in the way of the things I want to do. Today was one such occurrence. I spent hours just worrying about things that could be. There's no logic to it, and in most cases there isn't even really a catalyst (today's incident did in fact have a driver, but not one I feel safe discussing online).

I really want to find a way to focus this anxiety and do something besides idly wait in fear. I don't want to look back three years from now and find that I haven't moved forward in some aspect. Even if I just manage to use the time to create something or write, I would feel so much better than if I just continue to burn time doing nothing out of fear.

Merry Christmas! (So long, 2018)

Written on Saturday December 29, 2018 at 3:19 a.m.

Christmas has come and gone, it was a lot of fun. I got to hang out with family and exchange gifts with friends. I sent out Christmas Cards for the first time and it's something I want to continue doing but I actually need to allot more time and budget for it because I'm lucky enough to have many people in my life I'd like to stay in touch with.

I played through Gris and loved every second of it. The game is beautiful, the gameplay is simple to learn, but the puzzles aren't so simple that you'll likely solve them all on your first play through.

I also played through the "Adventure Mode" (single player campaign, essentially) in Smash Bros Ultimate really enjoyed that as well. I've been hoping to find people to play it with in the evenings, and have had some success, but really need to find some late-night friends who play.

I have a bunch of changes planned for my blog, some added support for images, graphic updates, etc. I'm sort of distracted right now by a new service I'm trying to bring to a state I can expose it without feeling embarrassed. In the end I'll probably launch that and an updated blog at the same time so that I can link between them.

A Dog's Needs

Written on Thursday December 20, 2018 at 1:03 a.m.

I've been having a mobile groomer come take care of Jake (my dog) here at the house, because he can't be near anything dog-like without stressing out. Recently our regular groomer had to move away, and the search for a new groomer took me like two weeks. We ended up going with http://youdirtydogpdx.com and I had them come by as soon as they could, and I honestly couldn't be happier with the result.

Jake came out super cute, and his fur was whiter / fluffier than it's been in ages. I wish Jake was as happy but, doesn't really like being held in one place too long 😂.

So Many Changes.

Written on Wednesday December 19, 2018 at 12:54 a.m.

A great many things have passed since I last posted.

My wife has found her way into the tech industry and is flourishing. I'm so proud of her and love watching her really enjoy her work and the company of her co-workers.

I have switched jobs yet again. I'm now working over at OpenLaw. I'm having some trouble adjusting to the tech stack still (we've got a Scala based backend, and a flow-react front-end). I'm doing my best to adjust to both, the latter being much simpler for me since I'm mostly a front-end guy, but still finding myself struggling. The people at OpenLaw however, are great and it feels like a good culture fit for me.

I've started learning to play the Piano. I had this big ol' surprise I had thought of for my next anniversary but managed to expose my plan really early.

Speaking of — I booked a big trip to Bora Bora for my anniversary. This was essentially what I wanted to do for my honeymoon and it feels like about time I get to experience it. Granted, this won't be for months but I'm very excited all the same.

I purchased a card deck of sorts to try to keep myself writing blog posts more often. I'm getting used to the idea that it doesn't have to be great or interesting. It can (and should) be for me, so I can read back at what I've done and have an anchor to my emotions and experiences.

A Little Heavier

Written on Monday May 21, 2018 at 8:57 a.m.

For the longest time I've been trying to put on weight, and this morning for the first time in a very long time I had a weigh-in with some progress. +4.8 lbs of it, which is a big chunk.

I'm not delusional enough to believe that's all muscle or "good" weight, especially since this was over a time frame of only two weeks, but I am hopeful that at least some of it sticks, it's been a long time since I've seen the scale budge at all and I could really use some encouragement.